THAT'S RIGHT ITS THAT TIME OF THE YEAR WHERE I CHANGE BLOGS!
OKAY IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHERE IT IS, HERE YOU GO.
REMEMBER TO RELINK, IF YOU HAVE THE TIME OF COURSE! :D

www.makebonmots.wordpress.com

Labels: Dailies, relink

Now, Its time to shove my laptop aside, maybe in some locked up cabinet. or something like that.
Its time to stop smsing people (i dont think this can be helped)
and its time to stop answering calls or making calls! (i think this can be done easily)
Its time to pull out those assessments and textbooks,
to put on those thinking caps etc.
To stop going out. Basically, to stop shopping.
Do as many practice papers as possible and PAY FULL ATTENTION IN CLASS!! :S
Time to stop blogging and youtubing and twittering. and all those other mindless things.
STUDY STUDY STUDY!

Labels: Bye for awhile, Dailies, Hiatus

SCREWED IT UP!
GAHHHH, SCREWED IT UP! D:<
I HATE THAT EXAMINER!!
GET HER A LIFE PLEASE!

Labels: Dailies, GCSE O'levels, oral

OKAY SO TODAY IS THE DAY.
THAT I HAVE TO TAKE MY OLEVELS ENGLISH ORAL! :0
I MUST DO WELL FOR THIS, BECAUSE MY WRITTEN PAPERS SUCKS TO THE CORE!
IF I WANT TO GUARANTEE MY A2 FOR ENGLISH, I HAVE TO DO THIS WELL! :/
OH GOSH, OKAY NERVOUS!
I HOPE ITS MANAGEABLE, I DONT WANT IT TO BE TOO EASY, OR ELSE THE EXAMINERS WOULD EXPECT TOO MUCH FROM ME :/ HAHA NOR DO I WANT IT TO BE TOO DIFFICULT D: GOSH, IM SO NERVOUS AND ANXIOUS. ITS LIKE EXACTLY 3 HOURS BEFORE THE ORAL EXAM! SHEEESH, IM EVEN MORE NERVOUS THAN MY CHINESE ORAL. SHOWS HOW MUCH I REALLY WANT TO DO WELL :/ GAHH, OKAY LETS THINK ABOUT OTHER THINGS RIGHT NOW.

SO I WAS THINKING, AFTER THE ORALS, I WOULD GO HOME AND RELAX, PLAY THE PIANO PERHAPS? AND THEN I WOULD GO FOR PHYSICS TUITION AND CHEMISTRY TUITION. GO HOME AND SLEEP. THEN TOMORROW IM GOING TO START STUDYING. YEP THATS RIGHT! UNLESS THE OUTING WITH THE F.A.C.E IS STILL ON 0_O IF IT IS, THEN IM GONNA START STUDYING NEXT WEEK ON MONDAY :D HAHHA, EXACTLY 60 MORE DAYS TO O'LEVELS! OH GAWDD, EXACTLY 2 MORE MONTHS. NOT READY NOT READY NOT READY. KILL ME KILL ME. OKAY YOU KNOW WHHAAAT, IM JUST GONNA STUDY, IM NOT GOING OUT :/ MAYBE LIKE I'D GO AND WATCH MOVIES ON FRIDAY AND SATURDAY. I WANNA WATCH FINAL DESTINATION 3D AND THE PROPOSAL AND UP! :/ SIGHS SIGHS, WHY MUST ALL THE GOOD MOVIES COME OUT AT THIS PERIOD OF TIME :/ GAHH, SIGHS.

OKAY EVEN MORE NERVOUS! SO MUCH EMOTIONS STIRRING UP.
OKAY THIS IS THE PLAN, IM GONNA KEEP ON SMILING AT THE EXAMINERS, TO THE POINT UNTIL THEIR JUST GONNA GET CREEPED OUT AT ME. YEAH I'LL DO THAT.

HAH, NO JUST KIDDING, YOU THINK IM STUPID?
IM GONNA SMILE (APPROPRIATELY) DONT WANT THEM TO THINK IM SOME SCARY/CREEPY GIRL FROM MG.

DOOMS DAY IN 3 HOURS, OH LORD BLESS MY SOUL.

Labels: Dailies, O'levels, oral

I'm going crazy, everytime i talk about myself. I go crazy.
I know, everybody wants to be special, everybody doesn't want to conform into this lowly society, they want to be an individual with their own morals and rights.
Yeah, i want to do that too, But while doing that, i want to be noticed as well.
Who doesn't want to be noticed? Who doesn't want to outshine others?
Ever since certain events, i've become selfish, i've become the opposite of being humble.
Actually, i'm not that funny. Its just stupid funny.
I'm trying to be this person i'm not, I'm a lazy pig basically. I think i can still live eventhough being locked in my room for 3 months. I would like that actually. No, then i'd turn even more fat.
You see, when i gather all these feelings back. I go crazy, i start to dislike myself all over again.
I've got to exercise, I've got to stop eating junk food, I've got to stop having those nasty pimples.
If i want to be accepted, i need to do those 3!
People are 75% visual, no wonder i live in such agony and jealousy.
No, i need to get out of here. I need to escape from this place.
I need to start a fresh, but these feelings always come back to haunt me.
to make me feel low about myself, after this year, i want to go far away..
far away, find my real identity, my purpose.

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AND YES I KNOW I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
IT'S MY FAULT, DON'T NEED TO CONJURE UP ANY FEELINGS OR THOUGHTS.

Labels: Dailies, down, purpose, weight issues

I've been away for awhile haven't I? Well, i said i was going to study. And so i did... but i didn't study that hard, i could've studied harder. Anyways, preliminaries are almost over, emath paper 2 left on Tuesday. And after that would be my GCSE English O'level Orals :/ I'm not going to lie, I'm getting a tad bit nervous :S Well, I'll just read some ENGLISH newspapers, and just talk to myself when I'm bored and pretend to talk about a certain topic. PRACTICE PRACTICE! A1 for English! But that's highly impossible, maybe an A2? i never gotten that before! But i'll try my best of course!

So, I went for Grace's Dad's wake. And it was emotional, for me. I mean, i wasn't close to him and all, but the fact that Grace (my long time friend) is going through such a tough time right now, it pains me to see her going through this. She's so kind, generous, trustworthy and a Godly woman of Excellence. She doesn't deserve to go through this. In my eyes, She has never done anything wrong. I respect her so much as a friend, one of my closest friends that i respect alot. I admire her because of her courage, her independence, her bravery and her Godly character. During that whole time, i tried to put myself into her shoes, and i felt so overwhelmed... I thought to myself "I don't think i'd be able to pull through like how Grace is doing right now, she's just too amazing" During the service, i learnt that her dad has impacted so many people around him, i can tell by the throngs of people gathered at the room, over-flooded to that point where people were standing outside the room, there was no place else to stand. So many people... Its amazing. After hearing Grace's Brother and Grace talk about their father, it really moved me, especially the times when they talked about how they regret not appreciating their dad's gestures of love, they took it for granted. I feel for them, and I thank them that i have opened my eyes fully, and i want to start fully appreciating my parents, even with my parents silly doings that might embarrass me at times.

I came to realize that i have never hugged my parents before,
i have never told them "I love you!".
seriously, i have never, its sad ain't it.
I guess, our family just doesn't show much affection.
I want to show them that i love them so much, but im just afraid.. I don't know why.
Maybe because i don't want to cry in front of them? Makes me look weak and all.
I get emotional so easily, thats one of my weaknesses hahaha.
Gosh, i'm really going to treasure my parents even more this time round.
Because the fact that everyone takes a step closer towards death each passing day, frightens me to the core... Sometimes i want to freeze time, i don't want anybody to go anywhere, just stay where they are, and just take in the moment...

I love you Grace, and will forever love you dear! I might not know how much hurt you might be feeling right now, but i just want you to know that i'm always here for you. Don't bottle it up, just confide to your closest friends, need not be me okay? Just hold on to your friends and your mum and brother, and most importantly, our God in Heaven. I wish you the best in your O'levels and everything, we'll go through this tough year, grace! LOVE YOU! (:

Labels: Dailies, Grace, sad, sighs, wake

HIATUS EVERYBODY.
go and study.

Labels: Dailies, Hiatus