I'm going crazy, everytime i talk about myself. I go crazy.
I know, everybody wants to be special, everybody doesn't want to conform into this lowly society, they want to be an individual with their own morals and rights.
Yeah, i want to do that too, But while doing that, i want to be noticed as well.
Who doesn't want to be noticed? Who doesn't want to outshine others?
Ever since certain events, i've become selfish, i've become the opposite of being humble.
Actually, i'm not that funny. Its just stupid funny.
I'm trying to be this person i'm not, I'm a lazy pig basically. I think i can still live eventhough being locked in my room for 3 months. I would like that actually. No, then i'd turn even more fat.
You see, when i gather all these feelings back. I go crazy, i start to dislike myself all over again.
I've got to exercise, I've got to stop eating junk food, I've got to stop having those nasty pimples.
If i want to be accepted, i need to do those 3!
People are 75% visual, no wonder i live in such agony and jealousy.
No, i need to get out of here. I need to escape from this place.
I need to start a fresh, but these feelings always come back to haunt me.
to make me feel low about myself, after this year, i want to go far away..
far away, find my real identity, my purpose.

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AND YES I KNOW I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
IT'S MY FAULT, DON'T NEED TO CONJURE UP ANY FEELINGS OR THOUGHTS.

Labels: Dailies, down, purpose, weight issues